2004-06-29 - 4:43 p.m. - weather-wah?

So I was randomly surfing, and found this little piece of html wonder. Dunno why I'm using it, or what purpous this serves here, but I just can't not show others, wether they care about my weather or not.

Current mood: weathered

2004-06-28 - 10:33 p.m. - return from paradise

Well, had a great time in Virginia. Spending time with my Dad was wonderful and refreshing. I miss him alot and I'm glad we got atleast that time together. I have to make sure I visit him more.

Now as for the trip itself, I wish it had been longer, and spent more time with others, but things don't always work out the way we hope. I'm not sorry for anything I have or havn't done. But the level of idiocrity that it's gotten to is horrifingly rediculous. It's one thing when I'm being threatened and accused and taken advantage of, but to threaten my friends? What the fuck?!? And then expecting everything to be ok, just like that. Who actually thinks like that? No matter what's happened, no one has any right to use or abuse me... or any of my friends for that matter. I am a person, not a sheep, and for once (as I've stated here before) I'm standing up for myself.

Otakon is GOING to be amazing, my life IS amazing, and my friends ARE MORE amazing then anything I could ever ask for. No matter what the future holds, lets hope that everyone can learn to let go of things they can't controll and get on with their, and everyone else's, lives. I have.

I miss you all, but it's good to be home.

Current mood: finished

2004-06-25 - 11:02 a.m. - "two insestual gay tigers"...

Another wonderful night where the theatre crew accepts me as Melanie's woman and have a freaking awsome time. I love those guys. They MST3K for a living. Man, I want that job. Too bad there are non-chain theatres back in Knoxvill, it'd be sweet, but yet not the same. Anywho...

Oh, it's back to Knoxville on either Monday or Tuesday!
I'll be back for as much as I can for some important matters and practices, and nothing is keeping me from Otakon now. I'm so freaking happy about that con for what feels like the first time since the first year I went... 3 years ago. Wow, my 4th Ota, crazy. I dunno if I should feel like I'm getting old or if I'm getting more insane for continuing this cosplay thing. Nope, costuming rocks! And I'm gonna rock it hard core for Ota. Excuse me while I gleee...

Current mood: wierded out

2004-06-22 - 9:04 a.m. - wait, what?

Uhg...... Just woke up.....

Current mood: uuuhhhggg...

2004-06-22 - 1:38 a.m. - wheeeeeeezzzleeeeeaaaahhhhuuuu???

Wooozzzzyyy... Drukard is me. Well, not as much as I was. What a great night! Gots drunk at the group appartment here in town where I am. Where am I? Staring in order of appearance: Ira, Rose (hey, that's me!), Matt, Michelle, Phillip, and special appearance by Tiffany. Also special guest via phone, Melanie. Twas a star studded night with lots of Tequiza for me! We played some guilty gear, sweeeet, I died as usual. Then I called me man, I have no idea what I said on that message. What did I say Jon? Then we talked about Final Fantasy 11, and that I might have to start playing it. I thought I had learned my lesson with EverQuest, aka EverCrack, but alas, I have not. Ack, I dunno, I'll think about it more when I'm less under the influence of tequila limey goodness.

Oh, and I talked to Lizzy and Matt, from my oooold school, online. It was sweet. I think I'll be seeing Lizzy soon before I leave back for Tennessee. I'll definatly be doing that now, just sometime between now and July 4th. I've gotta find a way to see Matt someday. Someday my old friend, someday.

When I get back there's a few issues to work out, but not many. Really the only thing is money and everything effected by it (alot!), which will take a while. It's amazing how much a dead cat can end up costing. Sigh.

Now I'll sleep off the drunkardness and the kick ass partyness, and be less retardedness. I'm going to regret this post in the morning.

Oh, and for the second time my AIM buddy list has dissapeared. It's really freaking me out and pissin me off cuse I can't remember how to spell everyone's, or just cuse of the sheer number of them. I guess it's ok cuse they're saved back in TN, but man it's annoying! I changed my password just incase hackers, or a certain hacker. You never know...

Current mood: not as you tink i am you... i'm drunk!

2004-06-19 - 10:10 p.m. - Pushin Me Away

The End


And now a new begining...

Current mood: serious

2004-06-18 - 5:21 p.m. - Busch today, gone tomorrow

Well, had my Busch Inerview. That's that. I was affraid something like this would happen. They called me in and the only jobs they offered me were food preperation. No thank-you. I worked in a grocery store bakery, that's enough food preperation for me thanks. Besides, my dad made a good point that there's no point to drive that far just to do what I could do at a grocery store or restaurant down the street. That, and when I was leaving the interview, a huge group of some europeans (dunno for sure what they were speaking) was coming in for some kind of orientation. That's the second time that's happened to me, although last time they were pretty blatent about it: "Oh, I'm sorry, we shipped in a bunch of kids from Tailand. You're job isn't avaliable anymore." Oh well, cheep labor.

I'm going to atleast spend father's day here with my dad, but I need a job NOW. Oh well, when I make a definate decision, it'll be definate. You know what I mean!

I'm also trying to get a better counter. Not that I dislike this page's counter, but it's a little simple for the ammount of hits I'm apparently getting. I'll figure it out. :)

Current mood: aaaccchhhh

2004-06-17 - 3:31 a.m. - sweeeet, duuuude

So this week is being filed under the best weeks ever file. I just had an amazing day... starting last night with a certain phone call. Ah, such sweeeet times, duuuude. Then I slept in *grinz*, woke up finally and watched a little Bush live and had a bit of scream therapy, and finally headed up to Melanie and had a freaking amazingly therapeutic afternoon and night. Mel, Paul and I had a great time. Pizza buffets make me feel like a goddess and I dunno why, but it's all good. Although, it doesn't take much to make me feel like a goddess. Aaaahhh... decadant brownies, BROWNIES!

I have my Busch Gardens interview Friday. I still dunno what's going to happen if it doesn't work out. I dunno, I may get the job I'm applying for anyway. Oh well, it'll hit me like a ton of bricks when I figure it out, and then I'll be all "ouch, duh".

You know, I keep trying to weigh the pros and cons of this situation with Tennessee or Virginia, like which end is the good end of the rainbow. But the rainbow had great ends on both sides. Arg! Maybe I need another day or three on the beach to think things through, hehehe.

Oh, and semi-updated my costuming site and Cosplay Lab profile (link on my costuming site) for future cosplay. Going to be a good costuming year!

Current mood: happy, happy, joy, joy

2004-06-14 - 3:05 p.m. - happy nights, sleepy days

You ever have something happen to you that makes you feel so wonderful and so happy to be alive? Well, something like that happened to me last night. I feel so amazing, it's crazy!

Current mood: sleepy

2004-06-13 - 12:00 p.m. - news from the sunny side

WELL! That was a blast! Probably the best family beach trip yet. I miss it already. There was barely any confrontation, and a loooot of relaxing and good old family love. Note to self though, bring own entertainment system if possible, cuse too many techies and one unknown system can be a bad combination.

Now that that's done, I'm now on the cource of the summer and figuring out whats next. Busch or not the Busch. Acutally it all depends on if I can get my old job or a job in costuming. We'll just wait and see. In the mean time I've got two amazing conventions to plan and think about. Going to be an awwwsome end of summer, that's for sure. I'm gonna kick so much costuming ass it's not funny, and yet I'll have so much fun. Wow! Oxymoron, I think.

Current mood: whoooooooooooo...

2004-06-06 - 11:50 p.m. - Life Finds A Way

Each day the world turns, just like pages in the book of our lives. No matter how bad things get, karma prevails.

Within the past two weeks, many things have happened, many things have changed, yet one thing remains certain. I’m going to be ok. Sometimes you just have to go with what feels right. And that’s what I’m doing. What feels right, for ME. Oh yeah, and I’ve met someone who makes me a very happy person too. Something like that always helps.

I can’t begin to describe the events of the recent past, and I’m not going to get into specifics. I’m only leaving it at this: no matter what I do in life, I will find the silver lining. I have.

Oh, and Brad Dourif is the nicest person EVER ;)

Current mood: content to watch the world move on