2004-11-30 - 2:44 a.m. - Why Wachowski's? WHY?!?

Ok... I've just seen the most depressing thing I think I've EVER seen on TV. I want to cry. Back before Dragoncon, I was told about the Wachowski's presentation about the Matrix Trilogy at ComiCon in San Diego. I felt bad because supposedly when they announced they were releasing a boxed set with all the movies plus 6 or 7 supplemental disks... they got booed off stage. It sounded pretty depressing of a reaction, although I can't really blame the audience. The ending of the matrix franchise was such a let down. Don't get me wrong, I love the concept and idea of the matrix, the execution and the experimental film making are beyond comparison. However...

I just watched an actually "paid for" late night mo-fo'ing INFOMERCIAL for the Matrix boxed set. I want to cry. A freaking infomercial! WHY? And the deal on the infomercial was such a steal, even more depressing. A $200 value or more for only $80. If I wasn't so disgusted I'd actually buy it. But I've already spent about that original $200 on all the already released dvds, games, and soundtracks. The sad thing is I'll probably end up breaking down and buying the boxed set next time I get my Best Buy bucks in the mail and only have to spend between $10 and $20 on it in the end. Gawd, I'm so pissed, I can't type. To a certain point, this franchise was such a beautiful thing, and then suddenly it went horribly wrong and every two brain cell jock and cheerleader thought they could try and understand it, so some big wig who didn't understand it themselves dumbed it down for that gawd-awful percent of the idiotic population. I'm sorry if I offend, but FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKK!!!!

Current mood: exiting the matrix

Edit: Oh, and after all that... Happy after Thanksgiving! I had a great time and sorry that I missed half of my family... again! Xmas eve and Xmas with everybody this time, I sware. And then New Years with everybody else. Woooohooo!!!

2004-11-20 - 2:04 a.m. - horay! 1 week!

The other day I had posted a diary entry about the subject I'm about to bring up, but it seemed too... depressing I guess is the word. So after about 10 min, I deleted it. But now that it's been a few days, and I've hit a landmark now, I think it'll be more appropriate.

So I've just made it through my first week of working out on our exercise bike and/or treadmill for atleast 15 min. or more every day. One week down, a couple hundred to go. Add a little bit of spontanious dancing when I'm alone, and I've got a great work out. I think this is literally the most consistantly I've EVER exercised. I wish I had a scale, I could measure my progress, but that's ok I guess. I'd rather not know how heavy I was when I started. It's very exciting really, and I owe it all to one person. Well, make that two. Myself, and Angelina Jolie. Let me explain.

No, I don't want to be Angelina Jolie, nor be her size... both are extremely impossible. But she's played many characters that I adore, and to costume as some of those characters has become my motivation. In my size from two years ago, I would have made a great Lara Croft. And I still can. That's what I mean.

And I want to be healthy again. I feel so sluggish and nostalgic lately. Not that I don't like my body now, I'm proud of my body and my look. Always have been no matter what size. But I want to feel better then being inactive and unhealthy.

Oh, and my hair is nice, long, and poofy like it used to be. That makes me all happy inside :) I've been putting off letting my hair grow for almost 2 years now, and I'm really excited to be going back to long. Actually, not to be too optimistic, but I'd like it to grow out longer then ever before... like waist lenght? Yeah, sounds a little far fetched, but I can dream :) Hey, atleast all my goals are atainable!

Current mood: ready to fit

2004-11-14 - 11:58 a.m. - so cartoons are cool, sometimes

Last entry was movies... today is anime and toons!

So Cartoon Network has started showing some fresh anime. I used to worship CN! Now... I tolerate most of it and adore a few shows here and there. Adult Swim is great, but there are a few things on there I just can't take. Now they've got some great shows that I'll never stop watching: "Venture Brothers", "Sealab 2021", and I've seen every episode but I still can't miss "The Oblongs". But lately that's been about it. I'm NOT and "Inuyasha" fan, or just about any other anime they've been running... and don't get me started with their day time shows. In all honesty, within the last year the only thing I've actually been excited to see was the Star Wars Clone Wars episodes... and I could download those the day of.

So anyway, recently CN premired some new shows and anime. I'm not going to talk about the shows, I'm just not impressed. But the ANIME! They're airing "Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex", OMG!!! This show is better then I ever dreamed! A GitS fan's dream! I love the manga, I love the movie, and now... I love the series. I know they're just airing it to sell the dvd's and they probably won't finish airing all the episodes, but if they do... weeeeeeeee!!! Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Now another premire was "Full Metal Alchamist". I've been weary of this series because it's fast becoming the "new naruto" on the anime con circut. "Naturo" is cute and all, but to me it's just... well... I don't enjoy watching it. And I don't enjoy seeing 20-30 people in the exact same $10 costume and ebay "naruto headband". Not even that... people wear the headbands with their normal clothes... through daily life. And you ask these "street fans" some questions about the show, they'll probably only answer about one then run away saying "I'm a ninja!!!". Uhg. So on comes this FMA where every con now the large group of cosplayers for the show grow by the 10-20's every con. Now I'm not saying these are easy costumes, they do take some skill... but only some. Hardly any for most of the costumes really. But now... Now I can't really say anything about it. I've seen the show, and I like it. It's actually a damn good show. And I've been very unkind to it because of my asumption from the similarities of the cosplayers to naruto cosplayers. I still don't think I'll cosplay as anyone to this show though (just not really my kind of costumes). But I promise I won't say anymore about the show or it's fans that associate it with Naruto. I apologize... now excuse me while I go watch some more FMA.

Oh! Also "Super Milk Chan" has come allong to america. Another cute show, but for some reason when I watch it I want to pull out my own teeth, or hair. There's something that gets lost in translation when long silences are involved. I'm trying to like it, but it's not working. Oh well... better luck next time.

So "Ghost in the Shell" forever! I'm sorry I ever said "Full Metal Alchemist" was anything like "Naruto", it's actually rather good. And "Super Milk Chan", uhm... no.

Current mood: animated

2004-11-12 - 9:28 p.m. - horror, suspence, slasher

Movie review time! Seen a string of horror genre films recently. So here they are.

"Saw" was great. It was everything I hoped for and more. Not really the new "se7en", but just as good if not better. The experimental filming and editing is mouth watering, and the story... this film does it's job well, it makes you look and your own life and make you wonder if you truly appreciate the fact that, well... you're living! I love that. Not for the timid though, so if you can't watch "se7en", don't see this movie.

Finally got a copy and watched "Audition". I had no idea this movie existed untill this past Halloween. It's a Japanese suspense/horror from 2000. WOW! Instead of being the popular 'supernatural' story that's being beaten to death both in japan and as remakes here (what the hell is the point of making a remake of a 2-4 year old movie? I just don't get it), it's almost believable in an incredibly creepy sort of way. Disturbingly believable is more like it. Little synopsis: a widowed man finally decides at the push of his son and friend to date again after 7 years. His friend has this "bright" idea to have an audition for a fake part in a movie that'll never be made, and these girls will be interviewed to find out if they're a good match for the poor lonely man. The girl he chooses... omg! Creeeeeeeepy! He falls in love with her because she says she "feels dead inside". That should have been his first clue. I can't say anymore, it's just... It's a film that make you take a double take to everyone you meet, and if your a woman, makes you realize what powers you can have over men, weather you choose to or not. I can't really explain it any better then that. Just... *shudder*

Saw "Seed of Chucky" today. I freakin love this series. It's truly a gem in the satire-horror genre. Anyone who doesn't think so, takes movies and themselves way too seriously. And this movie, can be called a TRUE Chucky film, because it's the only film directed from the series creator. The child Glen is sooo endearing and heartbreaking, Jennifer Tilly is faaaabulous, and Brad Dourif's voice work... can you be in love with a voice? Ah well. Seriously though, I havn't laughed this hard at a horror since "Bride of Chucky", and that's a modern classic!

Now I'm going to watch historical films and documentaries to get ready for "Alexander" on the 24th... I really REALLY hope they don't screw that one up. But I think I'll be happy as long as it doesn't do for Alexander the Great what "Troy" did for the Illiad! *groan*

Oh! and the Ewok movies on the 23rd. OMG! OMG! I was raised on these movies! I can't wait!

Current mood: can't watch another second! ok... maybe one more

2004-11-09 - 4:05 p.m. - singin the blues, trey parker style

There's just one thing I have to say, and thankfully Trey says it best for me:

Current mood: nutty like woah

2004-11-08 - 4:33 p.m. - Woot! A million times WOOT!

So my Virginia buddies won Best in Show at a con they got disqualified at last year. OMG! I screamed loud enough I think the neighbors might have gotten worried. But I'm so freaking happy for them! I wish soooo bad I could have been there. But it's all good. Katsucon can't some soon enough though. So to make it come a little sooner... I've decided to have a New Years Party up in Virginia. I'm not sure how or where yet, but I know I'm gonna rock it hardcore! I'll find a place in Richmond, it'll be sweet. I can't wait!

I've also been reminded that Thanksgiving and X-mas are fast approaching. I can't believe how fast this year has gone by, but it's been a really really good year. Celebration time... two family events, some Star Wars toys for tots drives, and top it all off with a very cosplay New Years! It's a good time to be alive.

Current mood: warm fuzzies

2004-11-05 - 10:45 p.m. - what's that website?

While my Virginia crew is having a blast down in VA beach at Nekocon, and my Star Wars buds here are re-cooperating from Halloween weekend last week... I think it's time for something special!

Introducing, the new and improved, the amazing, the stupendous, the super cool...

http://www.severedwings.com

That's right... I've got an official domain now. All sites have been updated accordingly. I've also got rid of one site due to not being updated for almost a year. But all the rest is ready for action. Oh, and my costume site has moved to diaryland. All the links are updated for that as well. No more geocities and pop-ups for me! There's also a new guestbook at the swc main site. I hope it's easier for people to post this way. Have a nice weekend. :)

Current mood: that damn good

2004-11-03 - 4:23 p.m. - the day after

It's done, it's over. We don't get another chance for another 4 years. I had many things I wanted to say, but now that I'm typing them, I just can't seem to organize them and say them... the right way. I cried, I screamed, I consoled, I defended, and I scoffed, all in only a few hours. I've been through every emotion I can think of, and things are still the same. Nothing can change things now. Now on the plus side, there was a record turnout, all the way around. Who knew just as many Democrats weren't voting as Republicans. *shrug*

There's one thing I don't like in all this. People are saying this proves we're two countries. NO! That's more ignorant then any vote casted, OR not casted for that matter. We are one country with multiple viewpoints. That's what makes us THE UNITED STATES. We're not here to agree with eachother no matter what. We're not here to prove eachother wrong. We're here because we can say what we want. It just happens that out of all the viewpoints that exhist in this country, most in order to be heard have to put themselved under two most heard categories. It sucks! But it's how we work. Say what you want, do what you want. We did our best, now let's try to realize we're all different and get the fuck over it. That's why we're here in this country. ONE NATION.

As a closing statement on the matter, and then I'm done... one more webcam pic. It pretty much sums up my feelings.

Oh, and I'm feeling much better now health wise, thank you!

Current mood: beside myself

2004-11-02 - 6:51 p.m. - voted

My body didn't want me to, but my mind was screaming "VOTE!!!", so I did. I was nervous, but it's all good. Nothing to do now but wait. There was a very nice Kerry supporter at the 100 feet mark, he gave me a sticker. So I put it on.

In other news, I have a webcam :)

Current mood: impatient

2004-11-02 - 1:48 a.m. - joy and dissapointment

So... I'm counting Saturday as my Halloween, because that day kicked butt for me. Sunday wasn't bad, up untill I came home to change into my costume, and I threw up. I'm so pissed. I havn't been this sick in what feels like forever. I was so looking forward to sunday night. Oh well, no sence in crying about it. Saturday did rock hard core and there's always next year. Besides, I make halloween outta just about every convention and whatever else I can use as an excuse to dress beyond the norm. Just the way I am.

Oh... and there's a huuuuuuge major amazing stupendous super insane cool thing that's I'm about to announce here about the website network. I'm so freaking excited and happy. It makes being sick not so bad to know what's about to happen. Just a little more work to do and I'll announce it to the world. :) You just have to take the good with the bad, and you'll find that the good can always outweigh the other things... hehe.

Time to vote tomorrow. My first presidential election. Sick er no, I'll be there. I'm excited, I'm worried, I'm happy, and I'm scared. I know what I'm going to do, but I'm so worried it won't be enough. Here's to hoping.

Current mood: sickies